I was reminded…….

So……Challenger and I are leaving tomorrow. We have brought Freebird to the upstate and stayed with her this weekend to settle her in.

We are at the moment, in a motel room, watching multiple shows as Challenger switches from channel to channel. I just start getting into one and he will switch the channel.

His thought…..he can watch more than one at a time…mine….IT DRIVES ME INSANE….

Makes it truly enjoyable for both of us and relaxing to watch TV together.

We are just chilling before taking Freebird and Prince Charming to a movie and dinner…..

This is Freebirds second year at college………

Second year students pack ALOT less than first year students by the way………..

Freebirds “first year” car load in ONLY my car….HERS was just as full.


This years goodies fit in two suitcases and the back of the car…….
She has really grown and changed in a year….emotionally…..spiritually…

Her studies are a priority this year and her appreciation of her ability to even attend this University is visible.

For me though…..it hurt as soon as I let myself think about leaving without her.

I shared that part of my heart with you in this past blog……..

And I knew….this year is would be difficult in even different ways……

It has been a tough year…..not just for me but for so many around me……

I was thinking on the drive, I’m tired of pain around me…tired of seeing stress on my children……tired of worry for others…..for my family…….dreading letting go of something again……

And what I knew and know to be true….I even started questioning.
I mean……does He understand what all we are having to go through…….does He remember my daughter is stressed……does He know we have to get our financial aide straightened out when we get there…….does He know that she is worrying about majors now that will give her the ability to get a job in an insecure market….is He aware that my son will be adjusting again to another change with his sister leaving……is He going to be there for her, will she seek Him?? I wanted to take over…you know…..partner again.…..

Then….I was reminded the moment I stepped onto her campus.

He didn’t ask for my partnership…but my relationship…..She didn’t need my supervision but my ability to give her to the Supervisor.

Someone had chalked this at the back door of her dorm…the first place we went and I don’t think they even knew that He had them do it just for me…..

It was sweet of them anyways… ; )

Letting go means…...LETTING GO…..
He already had her taken care of before I dropped her off…..He had already overcome those things….He knew where we were in our lives….He had her financial aide taken care of…and He really did….He knew she would be stressed…..He knew what her brother needed….He even knew that today, she and I would need this reminder….He had already overcome those things and if His love is more than mine…………then whose hands are the Perfect hands??

I needed to let go…feel her hand slip out of mine….my hands were not where she needed to be….or she couldn’t hold onto His.…..

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

Yes, it still hurts letting go…….but I am placing her right where she was supposed to be in the first place and He was ready and anxious to take care of her.

Love,

Me

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