This morning I walked up my sister’s stairs, from where we are staying, to see her sitting in the dark in her living room with her lap top opened.

She was up early getting ready to leave for the hospital.

“Hey”, I whispered.

“Is there anything that you are worried about before you leave?”

Immediately, I could see the panic in her face and I could feel my throat tighten.

Tears were rolling down her cheeks but it wasn’t like she was crying.

I knew I couldn’t cry, because that isn’t what she needed.

She said in a whispered, rushed voice, “I forgot Craig Westin’s toothbrush! I will put it in your bathroom, so you won’t forget to take it with you.”

She rushed on with a hurried whisper of, “I’m worried about this ebay purchase, the buyer hasn’t sent me an invoice.”

Two insignificant things.

But significant.

It wasn’t really about his toothbrush, or her invoice but the fear of what she was leaving behind.

I reassured her that what we didn’t take with us when we took the children, we could buy and that I would take care of her ebay purchase.

I asked if she had a tooth brush for Anna Rose and she said, “No, I haven’t really started with her brushing her teeth yet. As a matter of fact, I’m not even that great with Craig Westin……”

And we laughed…..

And I reassured her again.

Their twenty year old soldier/son text’d her before she left which brought on another round of tears.

We quietly packed her up….my parents came down and with my mother in her pretty blue gown and robe, my husband, myself and my father with no teeth in place yet, we stood on her front porch and we hugged and told her goodbye.

Tears were in everyone’s eyes and pain in our hearts.

She was scared and we knew it. She was ready and we knew it. She didn’t want to go and we knew it. She knew she had to and we knew it.

Her radiology begins at 8 this morning and for many of you, even when you read in the afternoon, she will still be in surgery. It will last for 8 hours best case and hopefully be finished by 8pm. Please keep her in your prayers. If you are new here and don’t know my sister’s story, you can catch up on this “post“. The Power of Pink blog will be updated today with my sister’s side of the story.

Thank you for your prayers!



14 thoughts on “Goodbyes

  • August 31, 2012 at 8:36 am

    Oh Rebecca! I am praying, praying, praying! Your sister, her family and yours have been on my mind and in my heart. I will be watching for updates today. Heather

  • August 31, 2012 at 8:37 am

    Beautiful, god bless you all!!!

  • August 31, 2012 at 9:45 am

    I will be praying for your sweet sister and all of your family today. Thoughts, prayers and hugs from California.

  • August 31, 2012 at 10:39 am

    Blessings and prayers. You write so beautifully…it felt like I was there. You are right that it wasn’t about the toothbrush. I am sure that it was easier to worry about the toothbrush than worry about everything else. I will be thinking of all of you today.

  • August 31, 2012 at 10:41 am

    Sending prayers for all of you!

  • August 31, 2012 at 8:36 pm

    Prayers are being prayed, for your sister and everyone who loves her–and you. You two are linked, bonded and to pray for one and not the other feels incomplete. She’s lucky to have you as a sister.

  • September 3, 2012 at 9:49 am

    Sending love, hugs and hope to you and your family Rebecca. Wishing your sister and complete and speedy recovery!!

  • September 4, 2012 at 12:09 am

    This brought tears to my eyes. I’ll be praying for your sister.

  • September 10, 2012 at 7:27 am

    I’ll be sending you and your sister and your families lots of prayers today. This was a beautiful glimpse- thank you for sharing.

  • September 10, 2012 at 7:57 am

    May God touch her softly

  • September 10, 2012 at 8:10 am

    This is so beautifully written, I almost feel like I was standing beside you watching it happen – and crying like a baby. Praying for you all…


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